Monday, April 27, 2009
Monday, April 20, 2009
a smile that brightens up my day
this is Caleb's smiling at me...
hehe.. quite a few times he smiled at me
when I talk to him...
I thought baby can only smile back at us when
they are 2 months old..but caleb can do it already
I think by now, his eyes can focus more and see clearly
(taken by my handphone..ngga gitu jelas yahh..soalnya jepretnya buru2 dan pas mendung jd kurang cahaya..)
Sunday, April 19, 2009
drop by my complaint!
haizz...having cousins who preciously did total BF plus another who popped just 2 weeks after u (also doing total BF) really sometimes frustrating..as mom and cousins and aunts start comparing..that she gives total BF and I do combi BF+FM...(even asked me how much ml I got if I pump..and then telling me my cousin managed to get .. ml ???!!!)
well...tell u what...
I decided to do combi - formula at night and BF during the day...it's not because my milk supply is low..or because I am so lazy to latch at night.
I have my own reasons.
okay..so you all want comparison? let's do the comparison then..
first, they got a stay in nanny...plus a maid to take care of the cleaning
me? although i have nanny now..i have her for 2 months only..and then what? I am all alone taking care of the baby, house and work all by myself! yesss... I am also working people!!!
If I latch at night and wake up every 1.5-2 hour..I'll be exhausted in the morning..dont mention about all the laundry waiting..wouldnt have the energy for that!
at least with formula..I get to sleep longer and have more energy on the next day.
and after doing some research..asking here and there ..seeing proofs...I see alot of friends who did BF only for 1-2 months but their children grow up well..healthy and smart too!
so people..stop comparing and give pressure to me...
when I say I might only do BF for 2 months..that's not a final decision!!!
I'll see how it goes..I might continue til 6 months as well..
but don't interfere with my decision...
your struggle is not the same as mine...I have my own...
Thank God you have nanny..you have maid...and all u need to do is latching and latching..no laundry, no cleaning job, no works...after latching u can catch up some naps...well I'm different okay...try put your shoes in mine...see if u can do it better!
and aunts...OMG...I coundn't believe that you also just breastfed for 2 months only last time but yet now giving me pressures too about why I dont do total BF.. ???? OMG...
so not in the mood of going back to indo now..
well...tell u what...
I decided to do combi - formula at night and BF during the day...it's not because my milk supply is low..or because I am so lazy to latch at night.
I have my own reasons.
okay..so you all want comparison? let's do the comparison then..
first, they got a stay in nanny...plus a maid to take care of the cleaning
me? although i have nanny now..i have her for 2 months only..and then what? I am all alone taking care of the baby, house and work all by myself! yesss... I am also working people!!!
If I latch at night and wake up every 1.5-2 hour..I'll be exhausted in the morning..dont mention about all the laundry waiting..wouldnt have the energy for that!
at least with formula..I get to sleep longer and have more energy on the next day.
and after doing some research..asking here and there ..seeing proofs...I see alot of friends who did BF only for 1-2 months but their children grow up well..healthy and smart too!
so people..stop comparing and give pressure to me...
when I say I might only do BF for 2 months..that's not a final decision!!!
I'll see how it goes..I might continue til 6 months as well..
but don't interfere with my decision...
your struggle is not the same as mine...I have my own...
Thank God you have nanny..you have maid...and all u need to do is latching and latching..no laundry, no cleaning job, no works...after latching u can catch up some naps...well I'm different okay...try put your shoes in mine...see if u can do it better!
and aunts...OMG...I coundn't believe that you also just breastfed for 2 months only last time but yet now giving me pressures too about why I dont do total BF.. ???? OMG...
so not in the mood of going back to indo now..
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Baby whisperer
Also recommending this book for you to read :)
I just read the 1st chapter and it keeps me reading for the whole hour non stop as I find it very interesting and I love how the author writes and elaborates her views.
p.s.
I got these 3 books of Tracy Hogg series plus the dunstan baby language dvd from an old friend. Thank you to sylvia who sent me these gifts ^^ I find it very useful and am really blessed by your generousity! Gbu dear..
understand the baby language
never thought that baby has language that we can actually learn to understand. Hmm..no it's not like a rhytm..but more like words! Yes..words..such as 'neh' 'eh' 'heh' and so on..
each word has its meaning that if we can catch the word..we would understand our baby better resulting in less cry and a more calming baby.
I got this dvd called "dunstand baby language". has 2 dvd inside and dont worry the dvd was very brief and won't take so long..so it is not boring. In fact, the speaker explains in a very clear way, providing examples of a few babies crying and she interpret the words.
I was surprised coz when I watched it, I found that caleb has that kind of cry too!
after watching it, hubby and me learn to observe caleb's word in his cry..and we somehow successfully interpret it. Like for example, we figured caleb saying the word "heh" in his cry...so we quickly knew he was uncomfortable..so we checked his diaper, but it was clean..so it must be he was feeling hot..so we bring him to his room and turn on the air con..within minutes, he calmed down.
Well, of course without this dvd any mothers will eventually come to understand his babies cry by her own motherly instinc. But anyway...this dvd is interesting. If you're interested, mothercare centerpoint sells this too.. you might want to check it out :)
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Caleb wants me.......
FOR MILK...!!
whenever he sees me, or when I hold him..he will open his mouth and pointing at my boobs..haaa...padahal dia baru minum loh...he's full...dan kalo suster yg gendong, dia ngga minta..tapi kalo aku yang gendong dia langsung tau..."oohh she's my milk producer" hehehe...
smart boy..he knows me well that I'm the one who gives him milk!
oh ya..belakangan dia suka digendong sambil jalan-jalan..kalo kita yg gendong cuma duduk ato berdiri di tempat..dia bakal protes...but once we move and keep walking...dia bakal tenang and pelan2 tidur...hehehe I think because waktu hamil aku seringgg banget jalan..hampir tiap hari kan keluar rumah..jalan ke orchard...kalo ngga aktif bersih2 rumah...so he's used to the movement..
loves him more and more ^^
P.S. talking about walking alot during pregnancy, I come up in another conclusion...bahwa banyak jalan pas hamil ternyata nggak selalu bisa memperlancar labour...buktinya aku ini..uda banyak jalan dan gerak eh tetep aja slow dilation...end up c-sect...jadi yah tergantung orangnya lahh...
whenever he sees me, or when I hold him..he will open his mouth and pointing at my boobs..haaa...padahal dia baru minum loh...he's full...dan kalo suster yg gendong, dia ngga minta..tapi kalo aku yang gendong dia langsung tau..."oohh she's my milk producer" hehehe...
smart boy..he knows me well that I'm the one who gives him milk!
oh ya..belakangan dia suka digendong sambil jalan-jalan..kalo kita yg gendong cuma duduk ato berdiri di tempat..dia bakal protes...but once we move and keep walking...dia bakal tenang and pelan2 tidur...hehehe I think because waktu hamil aku seringgg banget jalan..hampir tiap hari kan keluar rumah..jalan ke orchard...kalo ngga aktif bersih2 rumah...so he's used to the movement..
loves him more and more ^^
P.S. talking about walking alot during pregnancy, I come up in another conclusion...bahwa banyak jalan pas hamil ternyata nggak selalu bisa memperlancar labour...buktinya aku ini..uda banyak jalan dan gerak eh tetep aja slow dilation...end up c-sect...jadi yah tergantung orangnya lahh...
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
feels the old me is back!
Pas perjalanan balik dari ICA, aku udah bikin rencana...kan minggu depan caleb uda pas 1 bulan..masa confinement pun berkahir...rencana aku mau beraktifitas seperti dulu..mau bersih2 rumah!! hehe...
emang skrg ada suster yang tiap pagi bersih2..cuma aku pengen ngelakuin sendiri..selaen karena bersih2 itu adalah kesenangan tersendiri (puas rasanya kalo rumah bersih..dari dulu emang suka cleaning my own house...jadi bukan suatu beban sih hehe)...juga krn skalian pengen nyobain kalo ntar uda gak ada suster, hari2ku sama caleb di rumah gimana...jadi biar gak kaget gitu loh...
eh tapi sampe rumah liat kamar mandi di master room quite messy..kena tumpahan kapur sirih jd putih2 smua..dan emang uda lama gak dibersihin...wahhh gak tahan..langsung deh ambil sikat and bersihin...gak usah pake nunggu minggu depan lah..
setelah bersihin kamar mandi, lanjut bersihin kamar...
hmmm puas dehhh....berasa kayak the old me is back..
dan pas setelah bersih2, caleb bangun..and aku mulai maen2 ama dia...
dari sini bisa dapet bayangan most likely ntar gak ada suster aku bakal begini nih...
soal masak...aku dah pikirin bener2...pasti aku gak bisa pegang yg satu ini...jadi I'm really considering utk ambil catering mon-fri...weekend baru masak :)
Amsal 31.here I come! jiayouu...!!!!
emang skrg ada suster yang tiap pagi bersih2..cuma aku pengen ngelakuin sendiri..selaen karena bersih2 itu adalah kesenangan tersendiri (puas rasanya kalo rumah bersih..dari dulu emang suka cleaning my own house...jadi bukan suatu beban sih hehe)...juga krn skalian pengen nyobain kalo ntar uda gak ada suster, hari2ku sama caleb di rumah gimana...jadi biar gak kaget gitu loh...
eh tapi sampe rumah liat kamar mandi di master room quite messy..kena tumpahan kapur sirih jd putih2 smua..dan emang uda lama gak dibersihin...wahhh gak tahan..langsung deh ambil sikat and bersihin...gak usah pake nunggu minggu depan lah..
setelah bersihin kamar mandi, lanjut bersihin kamar...
hmmm puas dehhh....berasa kayak the old me is back..
dan pas setelah bersih2, caleb bangun..and aku mulai maen2 ama dia...
dari sini bisa dapet bayangan most likely ntar gak ada suster aku bakal begini nih...
soal masak...aku dah pikirin bener2...pasti aku gak bisa pegang yg satu ini...jadi I'm really considering utk ambil catering mon-fri...weekend baru masak :)
Amsal 31.here I come! jiayouu...!!!!
SPR application for your baby
today we made a trip to ICA for Caleb's PR application. Here's what you need:
1. come in the morning (before 12pm)
2. bring your document:
- both parents passports
- entry permit (yellow card)
- re-entry permit (chopped behind your passport)
- ROM/marriage cert
- IC
(bring legalized translation if your marriage cert is in indonesian)
3. bring your baby
4. bring your baby's document
- passport
- embarkation card (given a hospital or after you made the birth cert)
- Singapore birth cert
- 1pc passport sized photograph
(you may take photographs at ICA, cost- $5 and you will get 4 pcs)
Notes:
- bring both original and photocopy of documents.
- for submitting application, there is no need to make e-appointment.
- processing time is 3 months.
- Meanwhile, you'll be given a 3 month visit pass for the baby to stay in Sgp. If in any case you need to bring baby overseas, then when he re-enters sgp again, his 3 months pass will be considered gone, and he'll be given 1 month. You need to extend if by that time his PR has not been approved.
- you will receive an approval letter sent to your address.
- after you receive the letter, you need to make e-appointment to ICA
- on the date given, come to ICA with these document:
* baby's passport
* embarkation card
* approval letter
* ICA letter regarding re-enry permit being processed (which will be given to you when you submit the application)
* 3pcs of baby's photographs (passport size)
note: # upon collection, you do not need to bring the baby.
# please take note that this information valids if both parents are SPR (if only one of you is PR, then you will need to produce your CPF and income tax as well. For further info, you may log on to www.ica.gov.sg)
# for application when you bring your baby, queue won't be long as they will make priority to those with babies..so no worries :) --> di KBRI lbh lama antrinya haha...
1. come in the morning (before 12pm)
2. bring your document:
- both parents passports
- entry permit (yellow card)
- re-entry permit (chopped behind your passport)
- ROM/marriage cert
- IC
(bring legalized translation if your marriage cert is in indonesian)
3. bring your baby
4. bring your baby's document
- passport
- embarkation card (given a hospital or after you made the birth cert)
- Singapore birth cert
- 1pc passport sized photograph
(you may take photographs at ICA, cost- $5 and you will get 4 pcs)
Notes:
- bring both original and photocopy of documents.
- for submitting application, there is no need to make e-appointment.
- processing time is 3 months.
- Meanwhile, you'll be given a 3 month visit pass for the baby to stay in Sgp. If in any case you need to bring baby overseas, then when he re-enters sgp again, his 3 months pass will be considered gone, and he'll be given 1 month. You need to extend if by that time his PR has not been approved.
- you will receive an approval letter sent to your address.
- after you receive the letter, you need to make e-appointment to ICA
- on the date given, come to ICA with these document:
* baby's passport
* embarkation card
* approval letter
* ICA letter regarding re-enry permit being processed (which will be given to you when you submit the application)
* 3pcs of baby's photographs (passport size)
note: # upon collection, you do not need to bring the baby.
# please take note that this information valids if both parents are SPR (if only one of you is PR, then you will need to produce your CPF and income tax as well. For further info, you may log on to www.ica.gov.sg)
# for application when you bring your baby, queue won't be long as they will make priority to those with babies..so no worries :) --> di KBRI lbh lama antrinya haha...
Monday, April 13, 2009
caleb 1st outing to the mall..
finally got a chance to go out today..yayy happy...!!!
hehe..walau ngga lama sih..just 1.5 hour grocery trip to the mall...but I decided to go out and bring caleb (with nanny, of course..belom berani sendiri).
sebenernya masa-masa confinement belom slese...I'm not supposed to go out yet..and my hubby mestinya bisa bantu beliin..but he's working and I need the outing badly..kalo ngga bisa frustasi karena kebosenan yang melanda heuehuheue...
hmmm how's the trip?
at first..krn too much worries that caleb would be cranky, I decided to feed him before we went out..fed him another extra 10ml of milk than usual...which resulting that he threw out once we stepped out from the door! so got to change his mitten again yg basah kena muntahnya... and praying so hard that it didn't mean that it was a bad start to do outing today..
and finally, we are ready...
it turned out he was sleeping the whole outing trip..wasn't cranky at all...and it was fun for me :)
hueee tapi nyampe rumah langsung berasa capekkk bangett..aneh ya..padahal baru keluar rumah sebentar doang..and pergi ke mall terdekat lagi!... mungkin karena terbiasa di rumah terus 3 minggu..keluar sebentar jadi capek..untung sempet tidur siang sejam sebelom bersibuk2 ria lagi sama caleb..
tomorrow is another outing day..to ICA hehe..buat ngurus PR -nya caleb. Hopefully, smua lancar, ngga antri..and nge pas banget ama schedule-nya caleb (meaning: jadwal mandi, minum susu and tidur nya pas banget ama waktu ke ICA besok) phew...*praying*
update u again about ICA tomorrow ok.. :)
hehe..walau ngga lama sih..just 1.5 hour grocery trip to the mall...but I decided to go out and bring caleb (with nanny, of course..belom berani sendiri).
sebenernya masa-masa confinement belom slese...I'm not supposed to go out yet..and my hubby mestinya bisa bantu beliin..but he's working and I need the outing badly..kalo ngga bisa frustasi karena kebosenan yang melanda heuehuheue...
hmmm how's the trip?
at first..krn too much worries that caleb would be cranky, I decided to feed him before we went out..fed him another extra 10ml of milk than usual...which resulting that he threw out once we stepped out from the door! so got to change his mitten again yg basah kena muntahnya... and praying so hard that it didn't mean that it was a bad start to do outing today..
and finally, we are ready...
it turned out he was sleeping the whole outing trip..wasn't cranky at all...and it was fun for me :)
hueee tapi nyampe rumah langsung berasa capekkk bangett..aneh ya..padahal baru keluar rumah sebentar doang..and pergi ke mall terdekat lagi!... mungkin karena terbiasa di rumah terus 3 minggu..keluar sebentar jadi capek..untung sempet tidur siang sejam sebelom bersibuk2 ria lagi sama caleb..
tomorrow is another outing day..to ICA hehe..buat ngurus PR -nya caleb. Hopefully, smua lancar, ngga antri..and nge pas banget ama schedule-nya caleb (meaning: jadwal mandi, minum susu and tidur nya pas banget ama waktu ke ICA besok) phew...*praying*
update u again about ICA tomorrow ok.. :)
Saturday, April 11, 2009
sunday morning
sunday morning..but feeling abit blue..waking up and knowing I'm gonna do the same thing like yesterday *sigh*..so boring!!!!
I was planning for days to go out for a walk at the park with caleb..but it was always raining :(
I wish I could go out just for a while..to ease my boredom..
I'm really really bored...
but still afraid to go out to the mall with caleb...still not used to it..what if he got cranky..what if I need to change his diaper and no place to do it...what if i run out of milk..so troublesome to latch on public..hee I'm not keen with that idea too!
Help...bored...bored..bored..
anyway,
Happy easter...
I was planning for days to go out for a walk at the park with caleb..but it was always raining :(
I wish I could go out just for a while..to ease my boredom..
I'm really really bored...
but still afraid to go out to the mall with caleb...still not used to it..what if he got cranky..what if I need to change his diaper and no place to do it...what if i run out of milk..so troublesome to latch on public..hee I'm not keen with that idea too!
Help...bored...bored..bored..
anyway,
Happy easter...
ampuh dan gatalnya kapur sirih
yipee...today is exactly 1 week after using ramuan kapur sirih on my tummy..and the result is..lingkar pinggang berkurang 4 cm total!!
oh..tapiiii sodara2...gilaaaaaa gatel buangett!!! seumpama gak ada hasilnya..paling udah mati2an gak mau pake kapur sirih lg..untung ada hasilnya..
tapi gatelnya cuma 1-2 jam pertama setelah pake kok...waaa tapi menderita skale..pengen garuk aja..(but dont scratch ya!)
last nite..my lochia was back diiringi dgn slight menstrual cramp..was abit worried soalnya kmrn2 lochia cuma dikit2 kayak almost finish gitu..and suddenly kemaren jadi quite heavy flow lg..sampe ada lump2 yg keluar...i thought it was good..berearti darah kotornya keluar smua kan..and the cramp could be the uterus was contracting back to normal size???? anyway, i will monitor this...if the flow is too heavy..i think i need to contact my gynae..but so far this morning lochia not so much anymore..
oh..tapiiii sodara2...gilaaaaaa gatel buangett!!! seumpama gak ada hasilnya..paling udah mati2an gak mau pake kapur sirih lg..untung ada hasilnya..
tapi gatelnya cuma 1-2 jam pertama setelah pake kok...waaa tapi menderita skale..pengen garuk aja..(but dont scratch ya!)
last nite..my lochia was back diiringi dgn slight menstrual cramp..was abit worried soalnya kmrn2 lochia cuma dikit2 kayak almost finish gitu..and suddenly kemaren jadi quite heavy flow lg..sampe ada lump2 yg keluar...i thought it was good..berearti darah kotornya keluar smua kan..and the cramp could be the uterus was contracting back to normal size???? anyway, i will monitor this...if the flow is too heavy..i think i need to contact my gynae..but so far this morning lochia not so much anymore..
my problem is positioning
Alot of people complaining that they have problem with low milk supply...
some complaining the emotional effect that breastfeeding brings..
me? I really want to complain...!!!
my problem..my main problem..is not really on the milk supply or the emotional effect...
but it is on the correct positioning!
sometimes I can spend 5 mins to position my baby to latch...and it becomes harder when he gets cranky and impatient...whoaaa can be a very sweaty moment for both of us!
I'm not sure whether it is because both of us still learning how to do it correctly..or because caleb is confused between the bottle teat and my nipple..i feed him formula at night and my EBM (expressed breast milk) with bottle too in the morning...*sigh*
but I still dont want to give up yet...at least I've to try to goal my 2 months of BF.
my milk supply so far is between 80-100ml now each time pumping...caleb so far can drink 70-80ml. I dont really bother if people say you need to top up some more of milk supply...you've to have milk more than what ur baby needs now..hee...i thought supply=demand..if my baby demands 80, of course my supply will be around that right? why must be so stressed over increasing MS..
about emotional effect..hmm it is confirmed that most women feel the same that I do!!!
Yesterday, I asked ci jeanny if she ever feels some weird, sad sensation everytime she pumps/latch..and u know whatttt...she thought she was the only one who felt that before I mentioned it...it turned out she felt that too..feeling sad til wanted to cry...well I understand thatttt....really couldn't explain how's the feeling..but it's just weird feeling..coz it makes u feel sad over nothing. just want to cry...
thank God lately I can reduce this kind of feeling by thinking something else..just let my mind occupied...
i wonder why I heard so many people telling me that breastfeeding will make you bond with your baby..hmmm ????
to me...I feel the bonding time after I feed my baby (regardless what method i feed him - bottle/latch)...when he seems satisfied and full..I can talk to him, see him smile..cuddle him...he's so adorable...
this kind of time is so much fun..that makes me think if breastfeeding is so struggling that makes me so emotional..then it's not worth it! most importantly, we have to enjoy our time with our babies! haizzz...but again, if talking about quitting, I feel guilty too. The most making sense about breastfeeding that I so agree is that because it gives your baby the immunity against illness. at least this fact makes me holding on to it...keep doing it mummies...try your very very best!
but if somehow you decide to stop...do it peacefully with no regret :)
jiayou
some complaining the emotional effect that breastfeeding brings..
me? I really want to complain...!!!
my problem..my main problem..is not really on the milk supply or the emotional effect...
but it is on the correct positioning!
sometimes I can spend 5 mins to position my baby to latch...and it becomes harder when he gets cranky and impatient...whoaaa can be a very sweaty moment for both of us!
I'm not sure whether it is because both of us still learning how to do it correctly..or because caleb is confused between the bottle teat and my nipple..i feed him formula at night and my EBM (expressed breast milk) with bottle too in the morning...*sigh*
but I still dont want to give up yet...at least I've to try to goal my 2 months of BF.
my milk supply so far is between 80-100ml now each time pumping...caleb so far can drink 70-80ml. I dont really bother if people say you need to top up some more of milk supply...you've to have milk more than what ur baby needs now..hee...i thought supply=demand..if my baby demands 80, of course my supply will be around that right? why must be so stressed over increasing MS..
about emotional effect..hmm it is confirmed that most women feel the same that I do!!!
Yesterday, I asked ci jeanny if she ever feels some weird, sad sensation everytime she pumps/latch..and u know whatttt...she thought she was the only one who felt that before I mentioned it...it turned out she felt that too..feeling sad til wanted to cry...well I understand thatttt....really couldn't explain how's the feeling..but it's just weird feeling..coz it makes u feel sad over nothing. just want to cry...
thank God lately I can reduce this kind of feeling by thinking something else..just let my mind occupied...
i wonder why I heard so many people telling me that breastfeeding will make you bond with your baby..hmmm ????
to me...I feel the bonding time after I feed my baby (regardless what method i feed him - bottle/latch)...when he seems satisfied and full..I can talk to him, see him smile..cuddle him...he's so adorable...
this kind of time is so much fun..that makes me think if breastfeeding is so struggling that makes me so emotional..then it's not worth it! most importantly, we have to enjoy our time with our babies! haizzz...but again, if talking about quitting, I feel guilty too. The most making sense about breastfeeding that I so agree is that because it gives your baby the immunity against illness. at least this fact makes me holding on to it...keep doing it mummies...try your very very best!
but if somehow you decide to stop...do it peacefully with no regret :)
jiayou
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Sunday, April 5, 2009
1.5cm
apaan 1.5cm? hehehe yg pasti bukan dilation...kan uda lahir babynya!
ini adalah hasil ukuran lingkar pinggang yang udah susut 1.5cm setelah dibengkung pake kapur sirih. dahsyat bangett....baru pake 1 hari uda susut 1.5cm..padahal kmrn2 pake clarins body shape cream kagak ada perubahan apa2...
hmm iya nih akhirnya decided pake kapur sirih krn dipaksa my mom..tp pakenya di atas jahitan spy gak infeksi...
rasanya panas2 gitu kena minyak kayu putihnya trus rada gatel2 dikit...tp masih tahan lah..
hopefully aku cm perlu pake 1 minggu aja..ga enak soalnya..panas n ribet kalo lg BF
skrg clarins-nya cm dipake buat lengen doang...sayang deh uda beli mahal2 klo gak kepake...
gak sabar tunggu besok pagi...mau ukur lagi...smoga ada kemajuan lg! :)
ini adalah hasil ukuran lingkar pinggang yang udah susut 1.5cm setelah dibengkung pake kapur sirih. dahsyat bangett....baru pake 1 hari uda susut 1.5cm..padahal kmrn2 pake clarins body shape cream kagak ada perubahan apa2...
hmm iya nih akhirnya decided pake kapur sirih krn dipaksa my mom..tp pakenya di atas jahitan spy gak infeksi...
rasanya panas2 gitu kena minyak kayu putihnya trus rada gatel2 dikit...tp masih tahan lah..
hopefully aku cm perlu pake 1 minggu aja..ga enak soalnya..panas n ribet kalo lg BF
skrg clarins-nya cm dipake buat lengen doang...sayang deh uda beli mahal2 klo gak kepake...
gak sabar tunggu besok pagi...mau ukur lagi...smoga ada kemajuan lg! :)
Saturday, April 4, 2009
couplehood
I miss couplehood!!
today when hubby was about to leave for gen next..he kissed me goodbye n hugged me...
feeling like I wanted to burst crying... I realize i miss couplehood too...
when it's just me n hubby...
not that I regret anything..no..dont get it wrong...
haizz most probably just another post natal blues hit me..
ci lina kmrn ini jg tanya ke hubby kapan aku bisa diajak pergi2 lagi...
dalam hati..kyknya gak bakal lg deh...it's so tiring to bring baby outside..
pengalaman 3x keluar ama baby (ke PD 2x and ke KBRI)..persiapannya aja butuh waktu lama..hrs organize his travel bag..make sure gak ada yg ketinggalan..prepare susu, botolnya..air panasnya, diapers,etc etc...tiap kali abis keluar pasti sampe rumah capek bukan main...
but I think it's not so wise to answer ci lina's question by now...
coz caleb is still considered newborn baby...and I'm a new mother...
probably in the next month or a few months later...caleb grows up and easier to take care than now..and I'm already used to being a mother..my body is used to the new sleeping pattern and all baby things...
by that time, I may be ready to go out and have fun while I bring my baby with me too...
let's stay positive! :)
today when hubby was about to leave for gen next..he kissed me goodbye n hugged me...
feeling like I wanted to burst crying... I realize i miss couplehood too...
when it's just me n hubby...
not that I regret anything..no..dont get it wrong...
haizz most probably just another post natal blues hit me..
ci lina kmrn ini jg tanya ke hubby kapan aku bisa diajak pergi2 lagi...
dalam hati..kyknya gak bakal lg deh...it's so tiring to bring baby outside..
pengalaman 3x keluar ama baby (ke PD 2x and ke KBRI)..persiapannya aja butuh waktu lama..hrs organize his travel bag..make sure gak ada yg ketinggalan..prepare susu, botolnya..air panasnya, diapers,etc etc...tiap kali abis keluar pasti sampe rumah capek bukan main...
but I think it's not so wise to answer ci lina's question by now...
coz caleb is still considered newborn baby...and I'm a new mother...
probably in the next month or a few months later...caleb grows up and easier to take care than now..and I'm already used to being a mother..my body is used to the new sleeping pattern and all baby things...
by that time, I may be ready to go out and have fun while I bring my baby with me too...
let's stay positive! :)
how's motherhood?
alot of people have been asking me 'how's motherhood?'
well, I don't really know how to answer this question or find the right words for it...
maybe you guys need to ask me again next month hehehe..as this is really something new for me..i mean I haven't even hit 2 weeks yet..
but this is some pictures to describe how..
hmm my life is pretty much like this everyday...
night time after midnite will be just me, hubby and baby in the room...trying to put baby to sleep...and then we will wake up 2-4 hourly (Depends on caleb's feeding time)..while hubby feeds him, I will do my pumping job...
morning..I've to wake up sometimes as early as 5AM or 7 and if we're lucky at 8AM. and then pump again...
from 10AM onwards til 11PM it's breast job...every 1-2hourly..
sela2 waktu itu...sometimes I take nap...other time..I do sterilizing the bottles, warming my breast milk using AVENT...changing my baby diaper...carry him...put him to sleep...bath him..
so everyday is about baby and baby...
my only escape is this blog and FB where I get to socialize and keep in touch with outsiders...
so it's pretty much a routine.
am I happy? yes...have I adjusted well to my new life? honestly, not really...so it's difficult to answer your question whether I enjoy motherhood :)
I realize we always want something else..one after another and never be satisfied with what we have...padahal segala sesuatu ada season-nya yang shrsnya kita nikmati kan...
waktu belom hamil..pengen bgt bisa hamil..uda gak sabar tiap bulan ngetes positive apa gak...
begitu uda hamil kena morning sickness...rasanya menderita bangettt..pengen cepet2 9 bln n anak lahir...pas uda lahir pergumulan baru...sleepless nights, tiring days come..and we wish our baby grow faster...and then when he grows, we start thinking 'OMG we need to prepare his school fee" and so on and so on...
right now..I really wish my baby grows faster..reaching 1 month old..when he can smile and laugh..he'll be so cute..and then cant wait when he can sleep better at night...and wish he can walk and talk...hehehe I'm thinking pas dia uda seumur jethro or kayla..he'll be so cute..easier to take care hehehe...
and I've a dream...been praying to God..someday or next year..we will be moving to a condo with full facility..just nice when he reaches 1 yr old, i can take him for a swim..in a nice swimming pool..i got the feeling he enjoys swimming coz now he seems to enjoy his bath time already...
and my hubby can use the gym facility...what a dream.. :)
let it be a dream come true...
well, I don't really know how to answer this question or find the right words for it...
maybe you guys need to ask me again next month hehehe..as this is really something new for me..i mean I haven't even hit 2 weeks yet..
but this is some pictures to describe how..
hmm my life is pretty much like this everyday...
night time after midnite will be just me, hubby and baby in the room...trying to put baby to sleep...and then we will wake up 2-4 hourly (Depends on caleb's feeding time)..while hubby feeds him, I will do my pumping job...
morning..I've to wake up sometimes as early as 5AM or 7 and if we're lucky at 8AM. and then pump again...
from 10AM onwards til 11PM it's breast job...every 1-2hourly..
sela2 waktu itu...sometimes I take nap...other time..I do sterilizing the bottles, warming my breast milk using AVENT...changing my baby diaper...carry him...put him to sleep...bath him..
so everyday is about baby and baby...
my only escape is this blog and FB where I get to socialize and keep in touch with outsiders...
so it's pretty much a routine.
am I happy? yes...have I adjusted well to my new life? honestly, not really...so it's difficult to answer your question whether I enjoy motherhood :)
I realize we always want something else..one after another and never be satisfied with what we have...padahal segala sesuatu ada season-nya yang shrsnya kita nikmati kan...
waktu belom hamil..pengen bgt bisa hamil..uda gak sabar tiap bulan ngetes positive apa gak...
begitu uda hamil kena morning sickness...rasanya menderita bangettt..pengen cepet2 9 bln n anak lahir...pas uda lahir pergumulan baru...sleepless nights, tiring days come..and we wish our baby grow faster...and then when he grows, we start thinking 'OMG we need to prepare his school fee" and so on and so on...
right now..I really wish my baby grows faster..reaching 1 month old..when he can smile and laugh..he'll be so cute..and then cant wait when he can sleep better at night...and wish he can walk and talk...hehehe I'm thinking pas dia uda seumur jethro or kayla..he'll be so cute..easier to take care hehehe...
and I've a dream...been praying to God..someday or next year..we will be moving to a condo with full facility..just nice when he reaches 1 yr old, i can take him for a swim..in a nice swimming pool..i got the feeling he enjoys swimming coz now he seems to enjoy his bath time already...
and my hubby can use the gym facility...what a dream.. :)
let it be a dream come true...
Friday, April 3, 2009
03/04/09-cord-nya lepas!
pas nyampe rumah..hubby nemu di lantai kayak item2 gitu..eh ternyata itu kan cord-nya baby..alias puser alias belly button-nya ehehehehe...lepas juga akhirnya..
langsung aku masukin plastik and taruh di kotak kecil bertanda "caleb's cord 03/04/09" - buat kenang2an ^^
Caleb sepanjang hari ini ngga gitu banyak tidur kyk kmrn..dia bangun hampir tiap jam buat nenen..capek jg loh tiap jam kasi dia nenen...so jam 10 td uda tak kasi formula..and skrg hubby lagi gendong dia..hopefully bakal tidur malem ini..sleep through the nite little prince..
Nitez..
langsung aku masukin plastik and taruh di kotak kecil bertanda "caleb's cord 03/04/09" - buat kenang2an ^^
Caleb sepanjang hari ini ngga gitu banyak tidur kyk kmrn..dia bangun hampir tiap jam buat nenen..capek jg loh tiap jam kasi dia nenen...so jam 10 td uda tak kasi formula..and skrg hubby lagi gendong dia..hopefully bakal tidur malem ini..sleep through the nite little prince..
Nitez..
1st check up to gynae after delivery
yup finally back from gynae check up..
everything's fine..
gynae took out the waterproof plaster..was worried it would hurt...tp tenryata stitchesnya ga sakit, yg sakit malah kulit sekitarnya yang ketarik pas plaster dibuka..
dr.adrian cut the edge of the stitches..done in a few secs only...
he gave me a cream to apply on the stitches..and asked me if I was still taking pain killer..I said no..
also..I was wondering too..if the wound will hurt if i'm taking bath...tapi pas sampe rumah, I check the wound..actually it's already dry...cuma ada bekas luka kayak titik2 kecil gitu..and waktu aku apply cream-nya juga ga sakit/perih2 kok..
Oh ya..I asked a few questions to dr adrian...
whether the swollen feet I have is normal..he said yes..and it will go away soon
asked him about applying body shaping cream as well..he said ok too..(yipee)
so I quickly went to metro..to clarins counter and bought body shaping cream + oil strengthening..will apply on my arms,thigh and tummy-above my stitches...hopefully will flatten my tummy soon...
actually, my mom wants me to use 'ramuan traditional'nya..which is kapur sirih dicampur jeruk nipis n minyak kayu putih trus dioles di tummy and dibebet pake stagen n gurita.
tapi aku takut pake kapur sirih..krn bisa gatel banget..aku takut merembes ke bagian stitchesnya. but my mom said kalo uda di apply ke tummy n tunggu bentar aja ntar ramuannya bisa kering baru dibungkus stagen..jd gak sampe merembes...hueee tp tetep ngeri lah..i better wait another 2 weeks br pake itu. tapi katanya uda terbukti kalo paku ramuan itu pasti cepet susut tuh bagian perut..slm 1-4minggu bisa susut (depends on how flabby ur tummy is after pregnancy).
everything's fine..
gynae took out the waterproof plaster..was worried it would hurt...tp tenryata stitchesnya ga sakit, yg sakit malah kulit sekitarnya yang ketarik pas plaster dibuka..
dr.adrian cut the edge of the stitches..done in a few secs only...
he gave me a cream to apply on the stitches..and asked me if I was still taking pain killer..I said no..
also..I was wondering too..if the wound will hurt if i'm taking bath...tapi pas sampe rumah, I check the wound..actually it's already dry...cuma ada bekas luka kayak titik2 kecil gitu..and waktu aku apply cream-nya juga ga sakit/perih2 kok..
Oh ya..I asked a few questions to dr adrian...
whether the swollen feet I have is normal..he said yes..and it will go away soon
asked him about applying body shaping cream as well..he said ok too..(yipee)
so I quickly went to metro..to clarins counter and bought body shaping cream + oil strengthening..will apply on my arms,thigh and tummy-above my stitches...hopefully will flatten my tummy soon...
actually, my mom wants me to use 'ramuan traditional'nya..which is kapur sirih dicampur jeruk nipis n minyak kayu putih trus dioles di tummy and dibebet pake stagen n gurita.
tapi aku takut pake kapur sirih..krn bisa gatel banget..aku takut merembes ke bagian stitchesnya. but my mom said kalo uda di apply ke tummy n tunggu bentar aja ntar ramuannya bisa kering baru dibungkus stagen..jd gak sampe merembes...hueee tp tetep ngeri lah..i better wait another 2 weeks br pake itu. tapi katanya uda terbukti kalo paku ramuan itu pasti cepet susut tuh bagian perut..slm 1-4minggu bisa susut (depends on how flabby ur tummy is after pregnancy).
Breastfeeding
Nah dulu kan aku janji mau tulis sendiri pengalaman breastfeeding yg konon kata orang2 bakal struggling banget...well..memang ada banyak perjuangan...sampe skarang aku masih aktif di forum motherhood dan teman2 di sana pada stress over BF (breasfeed). ada yang stress sama milk supply yang cuma dikit, ada yang engorge-sakit banget, bengkak bahkan sampe demam, ada yang kurang tidur, ada yang dikit2 nangis over nothing or just simply feel so alone (post natal blues).
yah sapa yang gak ngeri dengernya...
well..this is my own experience...
I set it in my heart that BF should not be so stressfull..eventhough it can be that way...but choose the best way just so that you mau not get frustrated. if you get stressed, you end up with low milk supply. SO...I decided to do everything needed...aku ngga mau anti formula milk. some mothers yang bener2 ngotot mau exclusive BF biasanya against formula milk..jadinya stress sendiri kalo BF nya gak lancar. tapi aku sih santai aja...kalo lg capek banget, aku kasi baby minum formula...
in fact, I set up a pattern...
morning from 10AM onward til 12 PM I will latch on baby (alias kasi dia nenen)
12PM-10AM - kasi dia formula..krn kalo malem kasi ASI, bisa 1-2jam sekali bangun krn laper..ntar kita nya yang kecapean..(FYI, minum ASI emang cepet laper krn easy digest, sedangkan formula lbh tahan lama..bisa 3-4 jam). biasanya Caleb cuma bangun 2x dlm semalem..jam 3an sama jam 6 or 7 pagi...Praise God kalo abis minum dia lgs tidur...tp kdg2 jg dia ga mau lgs tidur abis minum..wah itu yang repot..untungnya gak tiap hari kayak gitu...kalo ngga kan kita kurang tidur mulu ya...
oh then..pas caleb bangun malem..my hubby will feed him with bottle..while I'm doing pumping job. Pump your breast milk is important..krn walau gak kasi nenen, kalo ASI ngga dikeluarin within jarak 3-4 jam wah breasts bisa bengkak n sakit...so tiap 3-4 jam itu emang hrs dikeluarin..either di pump or nenen. kalo engorge..di kompres pake air panas and dipijet yg keras (be cautious! krn bakal sakit banget). ..aku ngalamin juga tuh walau gak parah bgt...i think last week deh..skrg uda jarang...
my milk supply is quite ok..ngga terlalu berlimpah..tp juga ngga sedikit..skrg ini cukup buat porsinya caleb..malah today increased abit...skrg kalo pump bisa dpt 80ml..yesterday 60ml..Caleb sendiri skrg minumnya 60ml..
soal post natal blues...
hmmm hopefully aku ngga parah ya...cuma kepikiran kalo ntar suster uda balik indo..and aku mesti ngurus baby sendirian plus ngurus kerjaan and beresin rumah, setrika etc...wah pusing banget..kalo kepikir itu rasanya jadi down...tapi yah terus tetep berdoa minta kekuatan..praise God every morning aku merasa lbh strong and lbh pede kalo ntar pasti bisa!
oh before i forget...another thing about latching/pumping you BM...whenever I latch on or pump my BM, I always get this weird feeling...kayak perasaan sedih/empty tapi ngga tau kenapa...I think it's the hormones...biasanya aku lgs tengking dlm nama Yesus and concentrate on other things..pokoknya try to think of something positive..jgn pikir yang ga enak or pikiran kosong..
biasanya kalo lg pump, aku concentrate on telling my mind...have to improve this time..give me 80ml..etc etc..pokoknya pikirin yg laen aja..kalo lg latching liatin baby or talk to baby aja..
I've checked with other mummies in forum..ternyata mrk juga ngrasain yang sama..so i think it's the hormones..and I guess that's what makes BF even more difficult and might be one of the factors that triggers post natal blues. so watch out for this one!
soal breastfeeding position..awal2 aku masih struggling posisi apa yang cocok..sampe pake bantal bertumpuk2 utk ganjel..kadang masih pegel2 tangan/kakiku krn nopang badan..dan hrs dibantu suster utk posisiin baby yang bener...tapi skrg uda oke..aku dah bisa prop bantal sendiri..
I use cradle hold utk nenen sblh kiri...kalo sebelah kanan aku lbh comfortable pake football hold..
buat yang gak tau posisi2 apa..bisa check di website sih..click aja google: breastfeeding position.
kata ci Ida paling enak nenen sambil tiduran..tapi sampe skrg aku masih belom bisa...jd stick to sitting position with cradle n football dulu..
FYI, ternyata breastfeeding pillow gak gitu penting2 banget..krn bisa pake bantal biasa..hehe i think my hubby bakal comment kalo baca ini coz aku dah terlanjur beli heuheue...
oh ya caleb skrg uda mulai enjoy mandi loh...1st week dia nangis kenceng pas mandi..tp skrg uda gak nangis..hehehe seneng liatnya...
trus siang dia enjoy banget nenen...abis nenen slalu ketiduran..padahal baru nenen 1 sisi..sisi satunya lagi terpaksa nunggu 1-2 jam kemudian baru dapet giliran :)
tadinya aku kuatir ini anak kok tiap nenen kok tidur...tapi ternyata baby kalo dikasi nenen langsung emang berasa nyaman dan enak makanya dia puas dan ketiduran deh..
Anyway, hari ini aku bakal check up ke gynae..kayaknya mau di check stitches nya..will update soon about it..see you...
yah sapa yang gak ngeri dengernya...
well..this is my own experience...
I set it in my heart that BF should not be so stressfull..eventhough it can be that way...but choose the best way just so that you mau not get frustrated. if you get stressed, you end up with low milk supply. SO...I decided to do everything needed...aku ngga mau anti formula milk. some mothers yang bener2 ngotot mau exclusive BF biasanya against formula milk..jadinya stress sendiri kalo BF nya gak lancar. tapi aku sih santai aja...kalo lg capek banget, aku kasi baby minum formula...
in fact, I set up a pattern...
morning from 10AM onward til 12 PM I will latch on baby (alias kasi dia nenen)
12PM-10AM - kasi dia formula..krn kalo malem kasi ASI, bisa 1-2jam sekali bangun krn laper..ntar kita nya yang kecapean..(FYI, minum ASI emang cepet laper krn easy digest, sedangkan formula lbh tahan lama..bisa 3-4 jam). biasanya Caleb cuma bangun 2x dlm semalem..jam 3an sama jam 6 or 7 pagi...Praise God kalo abis minum dia lgs tidur...tp kdg2 jg dia ga mau lgs tidur abis minum..wah itu yang repot..untungnya gak tiap hari kayak gitu...kalo ngga kan kita kurang tidur mulu ya...
oh then..pas caleb bangun malem..my hubby will feed him with bottle..while I'm doing pumping job. Pump your breast milk is important..krn walau gak kasi nenen, kalo ASI ngga dikeluarin within jarak 3-4 jam wah breasts bisa bengkak n sakit...so tiap 3-4 jam itu emang hrs dikeluarin..either di pump or nenen. kalo engorge..di kompres pake air panas and dipijet yg keras (be cautious! krn bakal sakit banget). ..aku ngalamin juga tuh walau gak parah bgt...i think last week deh..skrg uda jarang...
my milk supply is quite ok..ngga terlalu berlimpah..tp juga ngga sedikit..skrg ini cukup buat porsinya caleb..malah today increased abit...skrg kalo pump bisa dpt 80ml..yesterday 60ml..Caleb sendiri skrg minumnya 60ml..
soal post natal blues...
hmmm hopefully aku ngga parah ya...cuma kepikiran kalo ntar suster uda balik indo..and aku mesti ngurus baby sendirian plus ngurus kerjaan and beresin rumah, setrika etc...wah pusing banget..kalo kepikir itu rasanya jadi down...tapi yah terus tetep berdoa minta kekuatan..praise God every morning aku merasa lbh strong and lbh pede kalo ntar pasti bisa!
oh before i forget...another thing about latching/pumping you BM...whenever I latch on or pump my BM, I always get this weird feeling...kayak perasaan sedih/empty tapi ngga tau kenapa...I think it's the hormones...biasanya aku lgs tengking dlm nama Yesus and concentrate on other things..pokoknya try to think of something positive..jgn pikir yang ga enak or pikiran kosong..
biasanya kalo lg pump, aku concentrate on telling my mind...have to improve this time..give me 80ml..etc etc..pokoknya pikirin yg laen aja..kalo lg latching liatin baby or talk to baby aja..
I've checked with other mummies in forum..ternyata mrk juga ngrasain yang sama..so i think it's the hormones..and I guess that's what makes BF even more difficult and might be one of the factors that triggers post natal blues. so watch out for this one!
soal breastfeeding position..awal2 aku masih struggling posisi apa yang cocok..sampe pake bantal bertumpuk2 utk ganjel..kadang masih pegel2 tangan/kakiku krn nopang badan..dan hrs dibantu suster utk posisiin baby yang bener...tapi skrg uda oke..aku dah bisa prop bantal sendiri..
I use cradle hold utk nenen sblh kiri...kalo sebelah kanan aku lbh comfortable pake football hold..
buat yang gak tau posisi2 apa..bisa check di website sih..click aja google: breastfeeding position.
kata ci Ida paling enak nenen sambil tiduran..tapi sampe skrg aku masih belom bisa...jd stick to sitting position with cradle n football dulu..
FYI, ternyata breastfeeding pillow gak gitu penting2 banget..krn bisa pake bantal biasa..hehe i think my hubby bakal comment kalo baca ini coz aku dah terlanjur beli heuheue...
oh ya caleb skrg uda mulai enjoy mandi loh...1st week dia nangis kenceng pas mandi..tp skrg uda gak nangis..hehehe seneng liatnya...
trus siang dia enjoy banget nenen...abis nenen slalu ketiduran..padahal baru nenen 1 sisi..sisi satunya lagi terpaksa nunggu 1-2 jam kemudian baru dapet giliran :)
tadinya aku kuatir ini anak kok tiap nenen kok tidur...tapi ternyata baby kalo dikasi nenen langsung emang berasa nyaman dan enak makanya dia puas dan ketiduran deh..
Anyway, hari ini aku bakal check up ke gynae..kayaknya mau di check stitches nya..will update soon about it..see you...
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