a prayer works like wonder

I had been worried these days soalnya caleb jadi kebiasaan digendong ama suster dan gak mau digendong mamanya sendiri..
tiap kali aku gendong selalu nangis dan baru tenang kalo di take over ama suster
wuaaa sedihnya...
dan worried juga coz the next 2 weeks uda gak ada suster..dan sepanjang siang bakal cuma berdua aja sama caleb...kebayang kalo dia nangis seharian and aku gak bisa calm him down gimana..
wahh panic..panic...

truzz kemaren di gereja aku sempet cerita ke tante anita-mamanya irma...eh dia lgs tumpang tangan doain caleb gitu...hasilnya......setelah dari gereja caleb rewel buangetttttt....hahahaha...
dari siang sampe jam 11 malem ngga mau tidur...tidur kalo digendong suster, tp ditaroh ranjang nangis lagi...kita pikir dia colic..wahh serem dehhh...tapi colic kan nangis mulu ya...ini nangisnya kalo ditaruh di ranjang doang ato kalo mummy and daddy-nya yg gendong..kalo suster gendong kok bobo lg..jadi ngga tau colic apa bukan..i think bukan dehh..tapi puji Tuhan jam 11 tet dia bisa bobo juga di cot-nya..
well this kind of day really tiring and discouraging....kita sampe kepikiran bgt aduh kalo gak ada suster gimana....dan of course yang paling takut ya aku lah...krn yg bakal ngurus caleb seharian kan aku..hubby kan kerja...

tapi setelah doa...i began to realize that having a baby should not be a burden to us.. believe me..they can feel your emotions..if u feel insecured,worried,angry, your baby can feel your emotion..and esp if you ever feel that it is such a burden, a difficult responsibility.. i admit i had this feeling...the idea of being alone with caleb the whole day really freaked me out..belom lagi kalo kerjaan lagi sibuk2nya..how am I going to manage that...

but a prayer works like wonder..
after a long tiring day..the next day on monday..I woke up with new spirit that I can do this...
so I put on my MIM sling and told myself he is my son, so he will want to be in my arms..hehe and guess what..within minutes he slept in my arms sampe ngorok2 hehehe...so since morning-night aku cobain lebih ngurusin caleb..and suster lbh banyak di dapur aja kemaren..
puji Tuhan sampe hari ini bisa gendong caleb dan dia uda gak nangis lg :) yippee...
and I believe juga karena doanya tante anita...thank you tante..

P.S. some of you invited me to join restaurant city in facebook. I really really want to play!! I always love to play restaurant game..but i know this game is addictive..I just can't touch it! once i touch it i think will want to play and play...and neglecting my son? hehhee...no way..better not start with it!