my problem is positioning

Alot of people complaining that they have problem with low milk supply...
some complaining the emotional effect that breastfeeding brings..
me? I really want to complain...!!!
my problem..my main problem..is not really on the milk supply or the emotional effect...
but it is on the correct positioning!
sometimes I can spend 5 mins to position my baby to latch...and it becomes harder when he gets cranky and impatient...whoaaa can be a very sweaty moment for both of us!

I'm not sure whether it is because both of us still learning how to do it correctly..or because caleb is confused between the bottle teat and my nipple..i feed him formula at night and my EBM (expressed breast milk) with bottle too in the morning...*sigh*
but I still dont want to give up yet...at least I've to try to goal my 2 months of BF.

my milk supply so far is between 80-100ml now each time pumping...caleb so far can drink 70-80ml. I dont really bother if people say you need to top up some more of milk supply...you've to have milk more than what ur baby needs now..hee...i thought supply=demand..if my baby demands 80, of course my supply will be around that right? why must be so stressed over increasing MS..

about emotional effect..hmm it is confirmed that most women feel the same that I do!!!
Yesterday, I asked ci jeanny if she ever feels some weird, sad sensation everytime she pumps/latch..and u know whatttt...she thought she was the only one who felt that before I mentioned it...it turned out she felt that too..feeling sad til wanted to cry...well I understand thatttt....really couldn't explain how's the feeling..but it's just weird feeling..coz it makes u feel sad over nothing. just want to cry...
thank God lately I can reduce this kind of feeling by thinking something else..just let my mind occupied...
i wonder why I heard so many people telling me that breastfeeding will make you bond with your baby..hmmm ????
to me...I feel the bonding time after I feed my baby (regardless what method i feed him - bottle/latch)...when he seems satisfied and full..I can talk to him, see him smile..cuddle him...he's so adorable...
this kind of time is so much fun..that makes me think if breastfeeding is so struggling that makes me so emotional..then it's not worth it! most importantly, we have to enjoy our time with our babies! haizzz...but again, if talking about quitting, I feel guilty too. The most making sense about breastfeeding that I so agree is that because it gives your baby the immunity against illness. at least this fact makes me holding on to it...keep doing it mummies...try your very very best!
but if somehow you decide to stop...do it peacefully with no regret :)

jiayou

Breastfeeding

Nah dulu kan aku janji mau tulis sendiri pengalaman breastfeeding yg konon kata orang2 bakal struggling banget...well..memang ada banyak perjuangan...sampe skarang aku masih aktif di forum motherhood dan teman2 di sana pada stress over BF (breasfeed). ada yang stress sama milk supply yang cuma dikit, ada yang engorge-sakit banget, bengkak bahkan sampe demam, ada yang kurang tidur, ada yang dikit2 nangis over nothing or just simply feel so alone (post natal blues).
yah sapa yang gak ngeri dengernya...

well..this is my own experience...
I set it in my heart that BF should not be so stressfull..eventhough it can be that way...but choose the best way just so that you mau not get frustrated. if you get stressed, you end up with low milk supply. SO...I decided to do everything needed...aku ngga mau anti formula milk. some mothers yang bener2 ngotot mau exclusive BF biasanya against formula milk..jadinya stress sendiri kalo BF nya gak lancar. tapi aku sih santai aja...kalo lg capek banget, aku kasi baby minum formula...

in fact, I set up a pattern...
morning from 10AM onward til 12 PM I will latch on baby (alias kasi dia nenen)
12PM-10AM - kasi dia formula..krn kalo malem kasi ASI, bisa 1-2jam sekali bangun krn laper..ntar kita nya yang kecapean..(FYI, minum ASI emang cepet laper krn easy digest, sedangkan formula lbh tahan lama..bisa 3-4 jam). biasanya Caleb cuma bangun 2x dlm semalem..jam 3an sama jam 6 or 7 pagi...Praise God kalo abis minum dia lgs tidur...tp kdg2 jg dia ga mau lgs tidur abis minum..wah itu yang repot..untungnya gak tiap hari kayak gitu...kalo ngga kan kita kurang tidur mulu ya...
oh then..pas caleb bangun malem..my hubby will feed him with bottle..while I'm doing pumping job. Pump your breast milk is important..krn walau gak kasi nenen, kalo ASI ngga dikeluarin within jarak 3-4 jam wah breasts bisa bengkak n sakit...so tiap 3-4 jam itu emang hrs dikeluarin..either di pump or nenen. kalo engorge..di kompres pake air panas and dipijet yg keras (be cautious! krn bakal sakit banget). ..aku ngalamin juga tuh walau gak parah bgt...i think last week deh..skrg uda jarang...

my milk supply is quite ok..ngga terlalu berlimpah..tp juga ngga sedikit..skrg ini cukup buat porsinya caleb..malah today increased abit...skrg kalo pump bisa dpt 80ml..yesterday 60ml..Caleb sendiri skrg minumnya 60ml..

soal post natal blues...
hmmm hopefully aku ngga parah ya...cuma kepikiran kalo ntar suster uda balik indo..and aku mesti ngurus baby sendirian plus ngurus kerjaan and beresin rumah, setrika etc...wah pusing banget..kalo kepikir itu rasanya jadi down...tapi yah terus tetep berdoa minta kekuatan..praise God every morning aku merasa lbh strong and lbh pede kalo ntar pasti bisa!

oh before i forget...another thing about latching/pumping you BM...whenever I latch on or pump my BM, I always get this weird feeling...kayak perasaan sedih/empty tapi ngga tau kenapa...I think it's the hormones...biasanya aku lgs tengking dlm nama Yesus and concentrate on other things..pokoknya try to think of something positive..jgn pikir yang ga enak or pikiran kosong..
biasanya kalo lg pump, aku concentrate on telling my mind...have to improve this time..give me 80ml..etc etc..pokoknya pikirin yg laen aja..kalo lg latching liatin baby or talk to baby aja..

I've checked with other mummies in forum..ternyata mrk juga ngrasain yang sama..so i think it's the hormones..and I guess that's what makes BF even more difficult and might be one of the factors that triggers post natal blues. so watch out for this one!

soal breastfeeding position..awal2 aku masih struggling posisi apa yang cocok..sampe pake bantal bertumpuk2 utk ganjel..kadang masih pegel2 tangan/kakiku krn nopang badan..dan hrs dibantu suster utk posisiin baby yang bener...tapi skrg uda oke..aku dah bisa prop bantal sendiri..
I use cradle hold utk nenen sblh kiri...kalo sebelah kanan aku lbh comfortable pake football hold..
buat yang gak tau posisi2 apa..bisa check di website sih..click aja google: breastfeeding position.
kata ci Ida paling enak nenen sambil tiduran..tapi sampe skrg aku masih belom bisa...jd stick to sitting position with cradle n football dulu..
FYI, ternyata breastfeeding pillow gak gitu penting2 banget..krn bisa pake bantal biasa..hehe i think my hubby bakal comment kalo baca ini coz aku dah terlanjur beli heuheue...

oh ya caleb skrg uda mulai enjoy mandi loh...1st week dia nangis kenceng pas mandi..tp skrg uda gak nangis..hehehe seneng liatnya...
trus siang dia enjoy banget nenen...abis nenen slalu ketiduran..padahal baru nenen 1 sisi..sisi satunya lagi terpaksa nunggu 1-2 jam kemudian baru dapet giliran :)
tadinya aku kuatir ini anak kok tiap nenen kok tidur...tapi ternyata baby kalo dikasi nenen langsung emang berasa nyaman dan enak makanya dia puas dan ketiduran deh..

Anyway, hari ini aku bakal check up ke gynae..kayaknya mau di check stitches nya..will update soon about it..see you...